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Anger was my enemy. I would battle it, suppress it, and then I would lose control and it would explode creating carnage in its wake.

I grew up not knowing how to express my feelings of frustration, anxiety, hurt, and disappointment. I avoided confrontation and did my best to please others. My frustrated emotional state would build until the volcano erupted.

I would berate myself after my anger spewed over the edge. I told myself I was weak-willed and unable to control my outbursts.

The damage that was caused in the wake of my anger was appalling. I cast words like stones, hurting those closest to me. Regret, admonishment, guilt and shame would be my unrelenting companions.

Yet there was a part of me that felt justified for my anger. I believed I was: standing up for myself, self-confident and strong. That was how a man responded to something that he didn’t agree with. You either got angry or you backed down.

My belief about anger changed forever the day I discovered that I could use anger as a motivational tool.

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I awoke one morning in April 2011 pissed off. I was pissed off at the world. In reality I knew that anger was towards my self.

The night before I had once again given into drinking. I had been battling with my alcohol dependency for months unable to ‘slay my demon’.

That morning I decided that I’d had enough. I had tried personal coaches, therapy, recovery groups, affirmations, and rehab. Nothing had stuck. I had expected someone else to give me the answers. Whenever I fell back into drinking it was someone else’s fault. Now it was time for me to own up to the situation that I had created. It was time for me to stop blaming others. It was time to stop feeling like a victim. It was time to take responsibility for my health and my life.

Anger was the fuel. I harnessed that energy. I drew up a plan of action for the next 90 days of my recovery. I would use the tools I had been taught. I would seek out those who supported my recovery and help keep me accountable. I was determined to follow through with my plan. It was time for me to kick my own butt. I wasn’t going down without a fight. I was furious that I had let it come to this.

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Five years ago that anger was the motivation I needed for the first 90 days of my recovery. When ever I felt that I was on the brink on giving in and having ‘one’, I would let that anger and frustration resurface.

It was anger that clarified that I really wanted to change. Anger gave me the opportunity to reflect about what I didn’t like about my life. It also gave me the kick-in-the-ass I needed to ask what kind of life I really wanted.

A by-product of my decision was a confidence and self-empowerment I had rarely experienced. I accepted that I was responsible for my own health and well being.

Anger gave rise to the courage I needed to fight the most difficult battle of my life.

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Today I use the words ‘righteous indignation’ instead of anger. I associate anger with being out of control and unreasonable. Whereas being righteously indignant gives me a sense of empowerment, permission to be passionate, assertive, yet in control.

I recognize that I experience righteous indignation for a reason. I use that understanding today to ask myself these questions:

  • What is it that I would like to see change?
  • What can I do personally to change it?
  • What is in my control, and what isn’t?

Asking myself these questions reduces the chance that my righteous indignation will build to active-volcano-anger status. I’m not always successful in subduing the volcano, but that is part of my process. I learn from the experience and get better.

I embrace feeling righteously indignant. When I sense it, I take time to reflect on what the feelings of frustration, despair, sadness or discontentment are telling me.

If anger is an issue in your life, I encourage you to look at it as a friend instead of an enemy. Take a look at what it’s telling you. Use it as motivation and to be inspired.

You can use anger as a catalyst for creating positive change in your life.

 

 

 


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